Ok I did it, Im back and ready to conquor !!!

Hey there world well well well, I got off my ass and went back to the gym. I did pretty well I must say. My goal right now is to get 40lbs off by the end of April. I really want to enroll in the spinning class in the morning, work out for another hour and a half on the treadmill, and then come home and do insanity. I am really in this fight to get where I want to be. When I lose this forty pounds I will be twenty pounds away from my goal. I am going to get some real runner shoes so I can stop hurting my knees. I gotta stay away from the dooming cravings for that monthly thingy. I have to conquor it. I am in the lane to win really hard. In may Im taking a trip to see my ex and I want to be the picture of health and happiness. Lets go Chaneta, Lets Go Juliet. Lets go EVERYBODY! We Got this!

Wow that holidays haunt my shape

Ok so I slipped up and fell in the banana pudding, the cheese cake, the pineapple cake, stuffing. Ok you name it I slept with it (ate it). Oh well Im done beating myself up and feeling bad because I got on the scale and I have went down to 282 and now Im only 283 so one pound gain and a bunch of inches are back. Well time to get tougher. I have slacked in working out because of the weather and not havine the right running shoes so I am now going to get some running shoes in a week and pick back up. I am so ready to get the rest of this weight off of me so I can feel free. I am on this journey and I have to stay on this journey. August 29th will be here before I know it. I can do this. I can do this. I CAN DO THIS. I have been self evaluating and as a peel the layers I realize that there are more things to be dealt with. We cannot continue to grow or be fed if we are stuck in the past or still full from a previous meal. Its not about the new year its about one day at a time what will you do with your days this year ? All I can say is today I felt sad as hell and decided to move... That meant getting out of that space and just moving and doing things around the house. I felt better instantly. Choices and decisions are all in our hands with certain things. Choose and decide what you want. I choose to get rid of this weight and my sorrow and decided to workout to get the results I want. What will you choose and decide. Until next time keep moving ( it helps).

I left this page for a while

I got so caught up in life. Well alot has happened. I lost ten pounds and then went to the famous Dr. Gupta and got the b-12 shot and some (cough deadly) pills. The doctor prescribed me phentermine. I took a pill for three days, it curve my appetite and made me feel like I was walking in another time zone. I hated the way they made me feel. Well I left that alone and then started the Dukan Diet. I really love the Dukan Diet however the first faze was a bit rough my eyes have been twitching so much and its scary. Needless to say I lost ten more lbs. I am very thankful for the jump start but I still have 65 more pounds that I want off!!!!! I feel I have so long to go. I know that I can do it because I was watching oprah's lifeclass where she gave a man a porche and it was because he worked so hard to lose his unwanted weight. He lost 305lbs in one year. I can lose 65lbs in one year. It would be a total of 85lbs. I am learning to love myself through other peoples strength so Im trying to really appreciate how strong I am. I am trying to show God appreciation. Im still here. I have lost everything and I am now trying to find me.... Until next time, oh I forgot to mention Im doing insanity workouts and walking a mile for lunch most days. 65lbs Im gonna show you what Im made of!!!! Beeleeeve DAT!

CHIP FIT!

Ok so last night I was extremely tired and was having a greed attack. I wanted to eat everything in the book of WRONG WRONG WRONG.So when I got home I did have some shredded wheat, a handful, then I made a overly big helping of salmon and ate it all, oops did I mention I fried it in bread crumbs and olive oil. Well guess what I was still hungry. So I got an apple and drank water and went to be. Thorugh the day I had more albacore stir fry and a half of oatmeal banana shake. Not too bad but next time NO BREAD CRUMBS!!!!! I want chips but Im so happy I made it through the night. I have a really great dessert that I make and everyone loves it, They even pay me to make it at work. Well guess what I have an order but its one of those desserts that I only have to tast the pudding part of it and very little so Im happy about that. Yay!!! Chips are really my weakness. Chipless in Cheatless land! Yea I will chant this as I want through the grocery store tonight, and I think I may eat a full bar right before I go. Im excited about being on day four. 361days to go. Im really looking forward to try and loose about 10lbs a month so by my 35th birthday I will look and feel fabulous !!! I cannot wait. There is a beauty queen diva under all this extracoating. See ya, I need some motivation guys where are you ?!

Day 2 Love A no Show!364

Today was a good day but I did not get time to spend in the gym working out. I went to the studio and finally my first song is sounding really good. Im excited now if I can get my producer to remember that the song isn't his and he doesn't need to be on it so much. Its not a collaboration, Im the artist, your the producer. Sing your songs, and produce mines. Today I ate a little meal called veggie delight with zucchini strips and portabello mushrooms, it was ok but I didn't like the sauce it came with. I also had the rest of that nice salad from yesterday. I came home and had tuna and veggies with olive oil and balsalmic vinegar but im sort of still hungry. I want chips BADDDDDDD!!! Im a chip monster. Wait did I mention Im a chip Monster! I want chips bad. I went to the seven eleven and only got coffee. That test was passed. Well I will get to the gym and showing myself some love tomorrow. Sad I didn't work off the salad but I will do my best tomorrow. Hey my eating was good. Good Night Day two down

Day 365

Hey there world,
I have completed my first day. So here is my day as follows. I was so tired and didn't go to the gym this morning so that meant I needed to go in the evening. Well I bitched and moaned the whole day, I made so many excuses about how I shouldn't go because I was so tired. I bargained with myself and said I ate right. So today I ate two packs of instant oatmeal for breakfast, for lunch I had a can of tuna sprinkled with a little olive oil, basil and garlic powder. I had a slice of watermelon for snack. For dinner I had a yummy salad. Mixed greens and spinach, eggs, peas, cucumbers,tomatos,red onions, a small tiny helping of grilled chicken (which I fed to my dog maxxy) I also put on some imitation crab meat just a little. But I did have sprinkles of fatening dressing and crouton. So I went to the gym and did cardio for about 75mins. 65 on the treadmill on which I burned 635 calories and 100 on the elyptical machine. I wanted to do two hours of cardio but could only manage 70mins so 50mins was left off. So what Im going to do is finish my night with an insanity work out. Wish me luck. Day one was pretty ok. The one thing I remember about working is from Richard Simmons himself, I want you to leave with your drawls wet. I decided that working out is considered loving me time. And I wanted to stop after 30 mins so I said hey you only love yourself 30mins worth today? So I kept going. I said don't quit on you. Finish loving you for the day. So to everyone give yourself some love even if its twenty minutes spend time with yourself and invest in your health. You will feel fabulous. Who's excited that beyonce is preggers I am! Now I may have a chance to get my album out and not compete with her LOL as IF! Good Night Folks Insanity and love calls.

Day 1

Ok so here I am. I am a 34yr old woman who is 5'11. I have been called the nastiest things because of my weight, even as an adult. I have lost two babies due to miscarriages at 6 months. Now after almost three years my fiance called off our wedding four months before it this October. I am still sad but I thought to myself I am very unhappy about my weight. I weight 295lbs, but if you saw me I don't look anywhere near that heavy, but my body knows it. I love being in shape but its hard to stay focused. I am someone who likes things to happen fast so this is the challenge for me. I am going to take 365 days to work out and eat right. No diet, No gimmicks,, just me and my own WILL POWER. I want this so bad guys because its nothing like getting in great shape and being able to feel great and stick your tongue out at your ex right ladies. Hopefully there will be some of you to join me or if not keep me pushing and motivated. Thanks for joining my blog. I gotta go First workout in the morning at 7:30am. Wish me luck, oh did I mention I hate waking up early and working out. LOL